She thinks she's mental

its so dang early at 4.26 in the morning i am still awake. still havent slept yet, jeez. i have only finished packing and right now im just waiting for some pics to be burnt so i can finally go to sleep. i'm leaving oslo this afternoon. i am so hungrrrrrrrry. oops, i just spotted a banana and some other fruits on the table. might just go for the banana, easier to peel. and it's got a lot of potassium. and i should be grabbing it by now if i really am hungry.

goodbye again norway. will see you again next year. my back hurts. i am sleepy and very tired. i will miss this laptop that is again burning my lap at this moment. it is getting light outside. i'll be in hamburg tonight. finally the cd is done, but i just inserted a new one to be sure i'll have two copies. it will be all for mankind's sake and world peace.

damn im really super hungry. can i just grab the banana now?

ciao y'all.

oh, btw. i changed my profile picture here again. you like it? so vain. so... me.

ciao again!

Oh jeez, what was I thinking when I blogged last night. It was some pretty emotional and mental entry. Actually there were two posts, one I have hidden already and another which I will also hide after I am done with this. Damn, Baileys! This is my last night in Oslo and I think I have loads of stuff to do but here I am still doing nothing much. I am going to watch some horror korean movie and I really really want to scare the bejeebles out of me that is why I am alone in the bedroom, curled up under the blanket, on the bed on my tummy, and my shoulders are hurting now from typing. Ciao. This movie better be good!

Sorry, this was some nonsense post. I guess it was a waste of time. Better stop typing now. What the hell.

Ciao again.

Here I am again being lazy! Traveling won't stop me from being lazy at all. I am in front of the pc again just doing nothing instead of exploring Bergen. I am so tired of walking anyway, everyday walk walk walk. I complain a lot I admit, I complain about everything. I complain about my hair, why the hell has it gotten light again when I just dyed it darker a month ago? It's supposed to be dark! But so many people like it in the pictures. Fools. Nah just kidding. Nice people they are.

I forgot what song I was going to put here again. Fk. OK, I think I'll go with Britney this time. I have the best taste in music ever I think. Hmmm what do u want to know about me? I just climbed a mountain yesterday. Really I did. It was exhausting. Not gonna climb again today even though I was supposed to. Id rather be sitting in and chilling in front of the cyber non sense, which I am doing now obviously. Just a few more days and I'll be back in the Philippines again! But damn, I still don't know if the travel agent sent my plane tickets to where I lived in Germany. I need to be sure. But hooooooooooooooooow, I shouldve put down the email address on some paper.

Next week will be a week of alcoholism. I will get drunk for sure in Hamburg then in Madrid then in Sheffield and Chesterfield. Don't ask where the hell Chesterfield is, I dunno it myself!

*runs to the mirror to check herself out*

What the fook is up with my hair. Is it the sun thats burning my hair and making it lighter?

I'm too lazy to go out............

i am sort of feeling better now. i still haven't changed the song here as i have been trying to figure out what the hell is that song that i want to have here. no, madonna wasn't that cool enough. so i chose hilary duff instead. come on, dont laugh at me. i love this song:

LOVE JUST IS

When the night won't fall and the sun won't rise
And you see the best as you close your eyes
When you reach the top as you bottom out
But you understand what it's all about

Nothing's ever what it seems
In your life or in your dreams
It don't make sense, what can you do
So I won't try makin' sense of you

[Chorus:]
Love just is... whatever it may be
Love just is... you and me
Nothing less and nothing more
I don't know what I love you for... love just is

When you ask to stay and disappear
It seems you're gone but you're really here
When every move seems out of place
But every kiss is filled with grace

Some things never get defined
In your heart or in your mind
It don't make sense, what can you do
So I won't try makin sense of you

[Chorus]

Don't ever ask me for reasons
I can't get to you
Don't ever ask me for reasons
Why I live for you... I just do

i don't really want to talk about it. i hope i dream about torres when i go to sleep.

HOW CAN A GIRL WHO JUST KILLED HERSELF BE BLOGGING AT THIS MOMENT? WHAT, I'M NOT A GIRL ANYMORE? YO, DUDE. I'M ALREADY IN A VERY BAD MOOD AT THIS MOMENT.

GERMANY DIDN'T GET TO SCORE. THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING.

I AM TRYING TO KEEP MYSELF FROM SUICIDE. MUSIC IS HELPING. AND ALSO PLANNING FOR THE WORLD CUP IN SOUTH AFRICA IS GETTING ME EXCITED.

MY AUNT IS OFF TO BED NOW.

WILL SNEAK TO THE FRIDGE TO GET SOME MORE BAILEYS.

IF ONLY THERE'S GUINNESS!!!!!

(x___O)

STILL, I LOVE TORRES. SO HOT.

LAST THOUGHT: WHY AM I NOT IN IRELAND SO I CAN HAVE GUINNESS????

torres scored. you know i luv him but it sucks big time that spain 1-0 germany.

pls kill me now!!!

not. not now.

maybe later when germany still hasnt scored yet!

x______x

OK, so I have put a pillow on my lap so it will stop burning, it seriously starts to get really hurt. I want to change the cheesy song here on this page into something.. cheesier. I forgot what I had in mind yesterday because I just always forget everything. I want to go for something 80's like Madonna's Crazy For You or even something Filipino Like 'Bakit Mahal na Mahal Kita' (Why Do I Love You So Much). Yes, cheesy. No, I'm not in love. More of heartbroken. It is very embarassing and humilating to admit but it is just a very sad and depressing fact I have to write though no one really cares. To whom do I have my eyes for? Fernando Torres. I have my eyes for him. But seriously, it is not him who's breaking my heart. I hate that someone.

I'm hungry and still no Baileys. Im just too lazy to get up and run to the fridge and have a full glass of it.

Ugh, what song shall I have??

Okay maybe I'll just go with Madonna then.

This is just so confusing.

OMG!!!!!!!! THE GAME HAS STARTED NOW!!!! FORGET MY HEARTBREAK, THIS IS MORE IMPORTANT!

No dear, no one loves me but only me because I don't have a boyfriend still. Not that I'm looking or caring huh! Noooooooooo. Anyway, I have a new picture for my page here (look right dear, look right on this page). The picture looks a bit distorted though but it will stay here for a while until I get confused again which is highly likely.

And I will post another picture that absolutely says 'VANITY' because I love... me. Wait. where the hell is the Baileys I was talking about minutes ago so I could get myself droooonk. Oh yes, in the fridge, of course. It should be there.

1_177289035l

So what can you say huh? Yes, VAAAAAAIN! That is why I love... me!

Oh this laptop is burning my lap! I'm probably using it too much eh? I still haven't decided what laptop I am going to buy when I get back to the Philippines but I am now pretty sure about what dslr I'm going to have. I. am. so. excited!!  Wehhhhhhh! Dang, really my lap is burning!

Anyhoo dear, there was something I wanted to say but my memory is getting ridiculously worse and worse than ever. Oh okay, maybe I can talk about my recent travels. Everything has been great though when I really think about everything, I barely remember most of it. No it's not the alcohol. I have had this awful memory even before I really started drinking (about 4 weeks ago). I don't know what to blame actually.

OH! Now I remember what I was going to say. So I was just watching the TV show 'Are you smarter than a 5th Grader' (or sumthing, cant remember exactly!) and I got loads (I mean LOADS) of answers right! Bwahahahahaha. I am so smart, good! I thought I already left my brain somewhere with all these traveling I'm doing. I probably only left the part of the brain that has something to do with memory... whatever it is I dunno. I'm only smarter than a 5th grader so let's go ask a 6th grader.

P.S. My lap is burning!!!!!